Sitting on the sofa watching Ed Edd & Eddy one day, my aunt tells us that she has to get our puppy, Genesis, some food along other things she need for dinner that night so out the door she went. As I sat there on the conch watch my cartoons, I felt this presence staring into my soul but there was only my cousin and I in the room. This presence I felt was like I’ve never felt before, as if it was a stranger. I ignored it and continued minding my own business. The strange presence came and sat next to me and said, “Can I watch something?” Without hesitation I handed over the TV remote and again he turned to the blocked channels.

This time I wondered how he got the code but I couldn’t find out without telling the adults what we were doing. I thought I would get in as much trouble as he would. The strange thing was that this time it wasn’t the usual pornography that we would usually watch, there was something different about this one. There were two males instead of a male and female. I was confused. I didn’t know that two boys could have intercourse until that day. My eyes were so glued to the brainwashing box that I hadn’t notice he was rubbing my leg gently.

[pullquote_right]The door shut and then the curtain around the tub flew open. Now I was really scared, I didn’t know what to do. I just stared at him for a long time. I guess he took it wrong way because he started to undress himself, slowly.[/pullquote_right]

This continued for a couple weeks but I could tell it wasn’t enough for him and boy did I hate being right. Two or three weeks passed and the time when my aunt goes and runs her daily errands came around. Everything was the same at first: the pornography, the talking, the sitting next to each other really close. This time, however, there was something weird about him. He told me to go take a shower because when my aunt came home I would have to go to sleep. I got in the shower with the door unlocked because when I’m in the shower for some reason someone always has to use the bathroom. That day I didn’t take a shower, I took a bath instead.

I heard the door creep open but I didn’t bother looking because I knew who it was. The door shut and then the curtain around the tub flew open. Now I was really scared, I didn’t know what to do. I just stared at him for a long time. I guess he took it wrong way because he started to undress himself, slowly. I don’t want to go too much in detail but I started to give him oral pleasure. I guess I wasn’t doing a good job because he pushed me off and slapped me. I was scared, confused and didn’t know what to do. I just looked down in despair. He looked at me, laughed and said, “Try again.”

Tags: abuse, sexual abuse, spotlight